Tuesday, October 31
How can I hope to make you understand
Why I do what I do,
Why I must travel to a distant land,
Far from the home I love.
Once I was happily content to be
As I was, where I was,
Close to the people who are close to me,
Here in the home I love.
Who could see that a man could come
Who would change the shape of my dreams.
Helpless now I stand with him,
Watching older dreams grow dim.
Oh, what a melancholy choice this is,
Wanting home, wanting him,
Closing my heart to ev'ry hope but his,
Leaving the home I love,
There where my heart has settled long ago
I must go, I must go, I must go,
Who could imagine I'd be wand'ring so
Far from the home I love
Yet there with my love, I'm home.
Fiddler on the Roof
As we watched "Fiddler" last weekend, this song came on -- and it really describes my situation well. The "Man" isn't any human man, though. For me this song is SO accurate, if you know the refernce of 'him' is Christ. (and "distant land" being Missouri).
I've applied to Covenant Seminary in St. Louis, and I've been accepted! I'll be leaving the home I love - going to pursue my Masters in Counseling.
I'll leave in January, right around the 18th or so. It's easy to forget about the move, though, because LSG and GPB's wedding is coming first, on Dec. 28th. It has taken up most of the Madre and my thinking time.
I think it will be good for my blogging, though, because I'll be able to keep it as an update for all of my Billings Blogger friends and maybe it will be more interesting for those of you that are not from Montana!
Saturday, October 28
You know that I'm
Still very young.
Please, take your time.
Up to this minute,
That I could get stuck for good.
Chava and Hodel:
See that he's gentle
You were also a bride.
It's not that
Chava and Hodel and Tzeitel:
It's just that I'm terrified!
Plan me no plans
I'm in no rush
Maybe I've learned
Playing with matches
A girl can get burned
Bring me no ring
Groom me no groom
Find me no find
Catch me no catch
Unless he's a matchless match!
Friday, October 27
This week LSG missed most of the episode. Last night, when Madre said, "So who has the tumor on Lost, do you think?" I said, "Ben," LSG looked and said, "Someone's got a tumor?"
Maybe Governor Ahnold will show up, right when Jack is about to begin the surgery, and and famously say....
They are OBVIOUSLY trying to set up a Juliet/Jack/Sawyer/Kate quad-rangle. It's called a square, Lost Writers Powers That Be, and that means that Jack and Juliette will begin the "Longing, But We're not Supposed to be Together" looks, and Kate will get Jealous, which means that Sawyer will Hit Jack.
I still think it will be a Kate/Jack love affair in the end, except she should really hit on "Brotha Desmond." (Kate! the accent, Kate. How can you resist? Oh, that's right. You're really dating Charlie.)
Speaking of Desmond, ahhh, its finally dawning on Charlie that the LWPTBs need to compete with NBCs "Heroes" and has given Desmond Superhuman revelations. I reiterate, plllleaaassee don't make Desmond crazy. Just Crazy like a Fox!
Charlie, Jealous-Paranoia is not in the Book of Virtues.
Claire (boring). We want more Hurley!
New Latino guy: Apparently the LWPTB wanted to branch out. Not one of my favorite characters, so far.
Ben: It is impossible to kill a bunny and not be EVIL.
Sawyer: Oh, you are pissed about the "only way to get a con man's respect is to con him" comment
SPOILER - Avert Thine eyes:
I thought from this comment (Oct 25th), This week was the week The I-Got-A-DUI Heaven in the Lost Sky gained a new person, but I guess it's next week. ("Duh-Duh-Dunnnnnn.")
Tuesday, October 24
Sunday, October 22
Wednesday, October 18
Dear Tech Support:
Last year I upgraded from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0 . I soon noticed that the new program began unexpected child processing that took up a lot of space and valuable resources.
In addition, Wife 1.0 installed itself into all other programs and now monitors all other system activity. Applications such as Poker Night 10.3 , Football 5.0, Hunting and Fishing 7.5, and Racing 3.6.
I can't seem to keep Wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to run my favorite applications. I'm thinking about going back to Girlfriend 7.0, but the doesn't work on Wife 1.0. Please help!
Dear Troubled User:
This is a very common problem that men complain about.
Many people upgrade from
You cannot go back to, or purge the program files from the system once installed. Girlfriend 7.0 because Wife 1.0 is designed to not allow this. Look in your Wife 1.0 manual under Warnings-Alimony/Child Support. I recommend that you keep Wife 1.0 and work on improving the situation. I suggest installing the background application "Yes dear" to alleviate software augmentation.
The best course of action is to enter the command C:\APOLOGIZE! Because ultimately you will have to give the APOLOGIZE command before the system will return to normal anyway.
Wife 1.0 is a great program, but it tends to be very high maintenance . Wife 1.0 comes with several support programs, such as Clean and Sweep 3.0 , Cook It 1.5 and Do Bills 4.2 .
However, be very careful how you use these programs. Improper use will cause the system to launch the program Nag Nag 9.5 . Once this happens, the only way to improve the performance of Wife 1.0 is to purchase additional software. I recommend Flowers 2.1 and Diamonds 5.0
WARNING!!! DO NOT, under any circumstances, install Secretary With Short Skirt 3 .3 . This application is not supported by Wife 1.0 and will cause irreversible damage to the operating system!
Best of luck,
Monday, October 16
I WANT: what I want without waiting for God's timing. Then I get frustrated (my own fault).
I WISH: I knew what he had in store for me
I HOPE: that I'll always be really close to my brother and sister
I MISS: My friends from College and Minnesota, and especially Marsha now that she's PREGGERS!
I HEAR: the pumped-in music in stores and restaurants and recognize the song when no one else can.
I WONDER: what God will have me do with my masters degree.
I REGRET: that my sin hurts others, and I've done great damage to relationships because of my selfishness and pride.
I HATE: raw onions
I AM NOT: a quiet, shy girl
I DANCE: when I'm out with my friends, and sometimes when I'm all alone.
I SING: all the time, mostly in my car.
I CRY: at movies. I also cry when Christ convicts me of my sin and reminds me of his atonement. I cry a lot!
I AM NOT ALWAYS: thoughtful of others when I speak.
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: a really "good" cup of coffee. (LOTS OF CREAMER)
I WRITE: posts for my blog all the time. They are usually too cynical so I don't post them.
I CONFUSE: My brother-in-law and brother often with my random thoughts.
I NEED: to be reminded that God's love is sufficient for me.
I SHOULD: be a better listener
I START: a lot of books and
I FINISH: fewer of them than I'd like. That doesn't stop me from buying them!
I tag Melodee, Molly, Amanda & Andrea
Saturday, October 7
Once upon a nine-thirty dreary, while Hannah and Molly watched United Ninety-Threary
A sad and serious drama of 9/11 lore.
While puppies nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of someone gently scratching, scratching at the fireplace door.
Tis some little mouse I muttered, scratching at the fireplace door,
Only this and nothing more.
Ah distinctly I remember, there might have been a dying ember
In that fireplace's chamber, had it been a colder evening of 6 October.
Then Scrappy perked her ears alertly, as scratching sounded more overtly,
And we approached the stove covertly - wondering what it had in store
Tis true that Friday nights in Billings can often be a bore
But this one isn't, nevermore.
"Tis not a mouse, might be a kitty, or a bunny slightly gritty
They're catlike eyes upon its brow,"
As we with flashlight inward peering, dimly discerning what we were hearing
Suddenly leapt back in stunned surprise, "Holy *&%$, it's an owl!"
"Let's call Bill Murray (phone is busy); Who'll help us? Lewis Vowell?"
"Is it to late to call right now?"
Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
Called this deacon, "Truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is there's a scratching, and we're sure it's an owl rapping,
And not so faintly is it tapping, tapping at my fireplace door,
That we're scarce sure what we should do - scared to open wide the door; -
A little birdy, nothing more."
Into their car leapt Karen and Lew, and to JB Stetson flew,
While we prepared with gloves and blankets, for the show with much ado.
Not the least concern he showed; firmly toward the bird he strode;
With gloves adorned and towel in hand, opened wide the fireplace door.
That bird had hidden its little body, somewhere beyond the fireplace door.
Perched, and hidden, nothing more.
Then the owl-let, greatly flitting, no longer quietly sitting,
Felt itself be captured into hands that nabbed that wee raptor.
Then triumphantly he brought it, showed the women how he caught it,
And carefully he brought it out the sliding glassy door,
Released it in from its ashy-prison, to the night sky was restored
Friday, October 6
Tuesday, October 3
I went to work instead. But today has been really great because I've gotten numerous emails from the people I spent time with, when I was in MN last week.
My favorite emails have been from the hotel staff of the hotel we stayed at. The Concierge in particular has a great sense of humor -He lived in Germany for 16 years, and his accent even comes across in the email through his choice of words. The hotel event staff became my friends in only a few days.
Sometimes its hard to know that there are such cool people out there, and that running into them will be few and far between.
And finally, randomly jumping from one thought to another: Over the last 6 weeks, I've been working on organizing my work life. I'm Reading a book, putting into practice various things. One of his rules is "Make your filing system easy. And use Labels. With a Label Maker. and DON'T SKIMP. Make the Labels." So, I bought a label maker -- for 1/2 off!! Gotta love it.